Posted on December 29, 2014 by Jennifer Wolfe
Oh, the spring and summer months, so simultaneously anticipated and dreaded. Months and years of preparation came to a head, as my children and I were thrust into turbulent change.
Lily turned 18 and graduated from high school; we saw joyful high school traditions and the rewards of hard work on the snow and the pole vault.
Senior Ball
Lily setting her high school record in women’s pole vaulting.
At the shore, we celebrated endings and beginnings of next chapters.
Cameron at Santa Cruz
Lily at Santa Cruz beach.
I experienced a true ’empty nest’ that terrified me. So I traveled – without kids.
Deschutes River
And in one of the most spectacularly horrible Augusts in recent memory, life turned completely and inexplicably upside down as dreams were dashed for one, opened for another.
broken leg in Oregon
This quote, by William Stafford, reflected this tumultuous time precisely:
“There’s a thread you follow. It goes among things that change. But it doesn’t change. People wonder about what you are pursuing. You have to explain about the thread. But it is hard for others to see. While you hold it you can’t get lost. Tragedies happen; people get hurt or die; and you suffer and get old. Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding. You don’t ever let go of the thread.”
Through it all, I tried to keep writing, to reflect the upheaval; as my posts were sporadic and at times, many far too difficult to write in the moment. Some of my favorite pieces from May, June, July and August were:
Every Day Is Mother’s Day For Me
Past And Present
A Month of Quiet
Letter To My College Bound Daughter
Today, I Love You
The theme of change and possibilities culminated in the fall and winter…more in my next post.
Posted on December 28, 2014 by Jennifer Wolfe
Lily and Cameron racing at Sugar Bowl, January 2014
The year started with fireworks in the snow. Ski racing was front and center for Lily and Cameron, and me, by default.
Cam at Sugar Bowl Academy
College acceptance letters started!
I struggled with changing perspective in motherhood as Cameron moved to Sugar Bowl Ski Academy, and Lily received college acceptance letters.
On our way to Salt Lake City, Utah, for our last two college visits.
Lily and I took our last college exploration adventure before her big decision.
And, I did a bit of writing, too. Some of my favorite posts were:
Thanks, Coach, For The Life Lessons
I Thought I Knew What Was Best For My Kid, But He Had Other Ideas
At This Moment, She’s Right Where She Needs To Be
Live A Life of Amazement
I had no idea that these moments, these bits of time and change and glimmers of possibilities, were only the beginning of the upheaval to come in 2014….more to come in my next post.
Posted on December 10, 2014 by Jennifer Wolfe
I started counting almost as soon as my eyes opened. I’ve lived longer than many I have known before me, those who have been called back to take another turn down another spirit path. While mine has spiraled and stalled and oftentimes taken me in unknown and directions that made me tremble, I’m still here. And counting… and to those who say age is only a number I say yes, I agree – but for me, the number is significant in the marking of precious moments in this short, fleeting time we have here, together, in this Universe.
I’ve been writing this year about change and possibilities and as soon as I realized that this day, so notable in the large moments of my life, was more than just me – it was a reminder to pause, reflect, and remember the year that passed. Birthdays, of course, are a celebration of another year well lived,if we’re lucky. If we’re intentional. If we pay attention.
I’m open to possibilities in this last-year-before-the-half-century. I’m open to quiet, to listening, to requesting and to hearing the Universe answer with guidance. Zora Neale Hurston wrote in one of my favorite books,Their Eyes Were Watching God, that “there are years that ask questions and years that answer.” I’m not sure what this year will offer me, but I’m ready to receive her whispers.